blah....thats all i can say....

track...wow...its a whole new perspective actually participating in it...while i am having loads of fun, i feel like i dont belong...like im not good enough to do this sport...i can barely run outside without an asthma attack and he wants me to run hurdles...ha...ill never be good enough :(...and he wants to pull me from discus...the one thing i thought i was going to be good at...i love the high jump though...i just once again dont think im gonna be good at it..

anyway...lifes been hectic lately...getting home around 6:45-7 ish and doing homework...thne shower and bed...not much of a life...sometimes i really cant wait for college...at least ill have time to breath...but then im sure i will have a job too so i will still be wore out...when does this stop??? probably never...

one of my bestest friends has been having a pretty tough time lately...she just doesnt feel like she can handle anymore crap from life...ive been there...i think pretty much everyone has..she just has a lot more than anyone in our school can understand...i mean, there are girls in our school who cut themselves because they arent "pretty" or "skinny" and then there are some girls who fight everyday just to try and have a normal life and still take whatever comes at them and don't whine about it...i must confess...im one of those girls who hates themselves and beats themself up for mistakes or physical faults...i guess you cant help who you are...maybe ill get over it one day...now i feel like a bad person..more self-loathing and pity...yay..

wow...this entry is kinda depressing isnt it...im really not that upset but i guess this thing is just a good way to vent yourself...i once again am looking for a good layout...this one gets on my nerves...blah...

i think i am gonna try to hang out with people more often on weekends...i feel like im left out of the social world now...its like every weekend i do the same old stuff...not that i dont like resting up, i just wish people would invite me to do stuff...like sitting around and playing guitars or going bowling or to the movies...i feel so lonely now...wow...more self-pity...

i think this whole entry make me look like a shallow kid who needs a life....i never actually realized how bad of a person i am...gosh...no wonder i sit home alone on weekends while everyone goes out...its like my own "close" friends are replacing me too...u know who you are and what im talking about....anyway...

this is like turning into a huge entry about self-loathing and self-pitu so i think i should end it before i make people think im like messed up in the head...i promise that i will get some pics up here soon...i just need to take my cam to school again... :)

alrighty folks...its time for a new layout...now its just the process of digging through all of them to get a good one...hmmm...if u have any good sites let me know...i think im gonna try to put some pics on here (scary i know...)...

okay..so some quotes from today

Shutler-"what was i asking"

Michael-"oh...so you can forget but we arent allowed to?"

Shutler-"yeah i forget...when all your doing it blahblahblahblah(rambles off to himself in gibberish"

...later..

Shutler-"Jonnie...when was the Declaration of Independence signed?"

Jonnie-"ummm..."

Jake-"*cough*1776*cough*"

Jonnie-"1876"

Shutler and class-"1876?!?"

Jonnie-"1976!"

Shutler- "1976?!?!?! (leaves room...returns through Mr.Tishers doors) What am i even doing here....my dad fought in the American Revolution??"

kinda a you had to be there thing...yet funny for the 8th period kids...hahaha..

how bout a pic now??

come on...how cute is that...this was after NHS induction...before we sat in the cafeteria for 2 straight periods doing nothing...

well...my pc is being gay...so i cant add more pics right now...but i might edit later and add some..or tomorrow...i dunno...

ok...this is an edit...lol...i finally got another pic on here...isnt it hot???lmao...more pics some other day